My life gets so busy that things start to pile up... literal things... like mail and dishes, shoes, books, work, water bottles... I hate clutter. But I also hate taking the time to put away my shoes or sort the mail. I try hard not to accumulate "stuff" as my place is so tiny, but it happens.
I think we all allow a certain amount of clutter and we tell ourselves it's harmless. The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up talks about the psychological effects clutter has on us. We are either holding on to things to feel a certain safety, or we are holding on to things in order to avoid making room for the healthier things we really need.
So, about a month ago, I was having issues with my sinuses. I couldn't taste or smell anything for a few days. And I noticed that I was still popping open a Diet Pepsi each afternoon, but I wasn't drinking them. I couldn't taste them. It occurred to me that I've been popping open a Diet Pepsi every afternoon for years. I don't remember the last time I really tasted it or enjoyed it.
Sure, I was addicted.
I stopped and asked myself what would happen if I just didn't open one today. And the next day, and the day after that. An entire case of Diet Pepsi sat in my little fridge for 10 days without being touched. So, I carried them out to the trash and haven't had one since.
30 days sugar "sober" - thank you very much.
I've learned a few things about myself. I noticed that I really only reached for it when I was feeling stressed or was tackling a project that seemed difficult. I noticed that I still really want one about an hour before I leave my house to teach class all evening long. But, I've also noticed that when I identify the feeling associated with wanting to reach for a Diet Pepsi, I am able to redirect myself and fill that space with healthier things. I notice I feel a lot more centered and even throughout the day without the high and low tides of sugary chemicals coursing through me. I feel like my head is clearer.
Anyway, what I'm learning is that clutter isn't necessarily the enemy here... it's the reasons we keep the clutter around.
Now, it's your turn. This is Journal Prompt #24.
This is Not the End,